Tuesday, September 27, 2011

  ~~~~ i have been in school for a little while now and i am taking a full course load and loving it but i am finding that it takes a lot time to get everything done. Just doing my homework is a full time job in and of itself. Not to mention taking care of the apartment. FLYlady would not be happy with me i have fallen so far off the FLYwagon that i can not even see it any more.  

~~~~ Between Biology, Psychology, Sociology, and Math i spend more time with my nose in a text book then i do in a book i want to read for pleasure. Son does help out a little around the apartment but not that much and he is so sick of me doing homework because it means we are not going for our walks when the weather is nice. It seems that every time i am able to go for a walk it is raining here and we can not walk in the rain because neither one of us can afford to get sick.  

~~~~ i get up between 6:00 and 6:30 in the morning and study until 7:00 when i have to get Son up for school. Then he and i both get ready for the day and i drive him to school by 7:30. i get back home pack up my school bags and head to school myself where i get there a little early and study before my classes start. At 2:15 in the afternoon i pick Son up from school and we head straight home where we take maybe a 20 minute break before it is homework time. Around 5:30 or 6:00 i take a break and if the weather is nice i go sit outside with a group of ladies from the apartment complex and Son runs around outside with his friends. Then around 7:00 it is time to start dinner and i study while that is cooking. Then it is a break to eat dinner and back to studying. Son gets into his before bed routine of a shower and everything and then lays down in his room to watch netflix and fall asleep around 10:00 and i study until around 2:00 to start it all over again the next day.

~~~~ And now i have wasted enough time on here and need to get back to my studying.

Saturday, July 30, 2011

~~~~ i have not posted in a long time because i have been so busy with school. i took two classes this summer to get started towards my degree. i want to get my PhD in Occupational Physical Therapy and have just started my basics. i took a math class and an English Comp class and just got my grades for both classes. i got A's in both. i am so happy. 16 week classes in 8 weeks 200+ math problems every week and a 3 page essay every other week plus Son to take care of. i have just been really busy. 

~~~~ Now i get to try get my apartment cleaned back up and looking decent. Son really did not help much with that and has been at his dad's since July 15th and will not be back until Aug 15th.. It will not take me too long to do i just have to get up and do it before i head to OH for a week with my family. i leave Aug 2 and will be back Aug 10th. i really can not wait to go i am going to be getting together with a lot of my old friends and visiting with them as well as my family. It is going to be a lot of fun. 

~~~~ i will get back in just enough time to get Son and i ready for school in the fall. i will be taking 4 classes and that makes me a full time student. Math 108, Biology, Intro to Psych, all at the school and Intro to Soc as an online class. Plus i will be helping Son with his school homework and taking care of him and everything here. i do not think i will have much time for a social life so i guess it is a good thing that my friends all understand that i love them dearly i am just going to be very busy making a better life for Son and myself. i am even encouraging one of my neighbors to go to school and get a degree to help herself and her kids. i told her i would help her study and understand everything that i could. i had a study group this summer for the people in class but only two of them came and i was able to get one of them an A in math and the other i do not know what her final grade was yet but she was having a hard time with the speed. Not the speed of the class but the speed we had to do each problem with so that we got them all done in the time we had to take the test. 

~~~~ i am getting a new laptop when i go out to OH as well. One of my brothers is getting it for me as a Christmas / Birthday gift. This laptop is dieing and i do not want to risk using it and having it crash with my online class. i just have to get my new one set up to my network when i get back and i have no idea how to do that. i will have to have my brother or my friend who always works on my computers walk me through it all. It should not be to hard i hope but we will see. i do not do computer stuff well. i love doing crafts and working with pictures but when it come to setting up a computer i have no clue what to do.  But that is just me. 
~~~~ i am so happy though i finally got an old friend of mine from OH back in my life i lost contact with him 12 years ago when he and i went down to Texas and we have started talking again. We talk almost every day about just about everything and are getting to know each other again. i am really hoping to be able to see him when i go out to OH. i have missed him so much and it is so nice to know that he is doing good in life. He is back in OH and has two kids and a good job and is going to school as well. i am so proud of him. With everything that has happened in his life he is getting it all together and going to school something he swore that he would never do. He made a couple of promises back when we were in OH before we went to Texas and he has kept them too. That really touched me when he told me that.  i must admit i have always loved him. i am not in love with him but i have always loved him and he has always meant the world to me and it is great to be hearing his voice again. i really hope i can see him while i am out in OH but we will have to see what happens.

~~~~ i know i am jumping all around in this trying to get it all out as fast as i can so that i can go work on my apartment and that is what i am going to go do now.  There is a lot more that i want to say but i do not want to get into the stuff that has me upset and am happy and feeling great today and i want to stay that way

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Thanks you to everyone who has been supportive of her family and keeping Jessica and her family in your prayers. Its such a relief to know that right now she is with the Embassy and we know where she is.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

This girl is a friend of my ex step-daughter's and she has been missing for over 24 hours. She was last seen at the Orsay museum in Paris, France and was staying at the Mistal Hotel with a group. She is 21 years old and her name is Jessica Metcalf.

Monday, February 28, 2011

~~~~ i got a new phone today. my old one was really messing up and driving me nuts so i got a new one and i like it, i think. i have not had it very long, as in only about an hour. But it is smarter than i am and that is not a good thing so i need to sit down and learn it. That will take time but i will get it. i swear that i will.

~~~~ i even drove and got it all by myself and that is a huge thing for me. Driving is not my favorite thing to do but i am making myself do it as often as i can with short trips to start and then i will go farther and farther until i am just fine driving but that will take a long time to get to.

~~~~ So anyway. This new phone is a smart phone that is completely touch. i got the purple one but it also comes in black. It is the LG Optimus S. i looked at it on Sunday but had to think about it and see what i really wanted. This one does more then i wanted but, also does everything that i wanted it to. So now i have to enter all my numbers and alarms again but i will get it done.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

~~~~ Lately i have been looking for a good yarn store and so far i have found only one yarn store near me and it is in the next state over well North. Now yes i do not live to far from the state line but still i would like to have one closer to home. It is only a 15 minute drive and i know i sound silly but i would really like one that i could walk to. There are so many open store fronts in the next town south of me (if i went the next town north i will be in the other state) and i would love to see a yarn and tea shop open up in one of them. But i just do not think it will happen in this economy or this era either. Yes, i know knitting was the new hot thing for a while with all the stars but i am not sure how many people around here actually picked up and are still doing it. 

~~~~ You always read about these Stitch N' Bitch groups that go to the local coffee house to meet and i do not even know of one of those in my town. i have asked around. The coffee house we have well in the next town over but it is there but the Stitch N' Bitch i have not found anyone that knows of one. Now i could try and start one and i may do that. It is just that you read all these wonderful books about yarn shops that groups of people getting together and sharing their lives. (i personally have five different authors on my shelves with stories like this and more in my wish list) At times i think i would love to open a tea and yarn shop,yes there would be coffee too, in town but i do not know how well it would work and really do not know much about that side of running a store. i have managed stores before but never had to do all the ordering and book keeping and all of that. i am sure if i asked my boss who has had a couple of stores before he could help me but like i said i am not sure it would take off and work and i can not right now put money that i do not really have into something like that. 

~~~~ Maybe this is a dream that i will just have to keep for the future and try when things are better around here. Right now i need to think about what is best for Son and i. Right now i am getting ready to go to school for Occupational Therapy. Maybe after i save up money from doing that for a while i can look into opening one of these yarn shops and see how it goes.

Monday, February 21, 2011

~~~~ i belong to a group on Ravelry called Lets Make A Gift of a Healing Blanket . This is a group of wonderful women from all over the world that knit or crochet squares that get sewn together to make blankets for people who need them. Last year in September i nominated my dad to get one of these blankets and he was voted as one to receive a blanket. Sadly my dad passed away on October 18, 2010 before he got the blanket so it came to me instead. 

~~~~ i have had it for a little while now and Son and i use it on the couch to cover up with and keep warm. It reminds us of my dad and makes it so that Son can feel he is still close. i have wanted to post pictures of this beautiful blanket for a long time but was worried some in my family were not ready to see it yet and now i hope they are because i am finally posting the pics.

~~~~ i love this blanket and these wonderful ladies so much and think that this group is such a great idea that i am not helping to make the blankets with more then just sending in squares. i am the US coordinator for making the blankets. This means that i get squares sent to me and i sew them into blankets and send the blankets to those whom the group has voted on as the recipient for the blanket for that month. Right now i am doing one every other month and trying to build up my stash of squares so that i can get the blankets done quicker and squares from more people. 

~~~~ If you have come across this blog and like the idea and would love to help please click on the link above and join us. Or just leave me a comment and i can get you the information to send the squares to  me or to the other person who is making the blankets and she is in England. We welcome squares from everyone, and from everywhere. They can be of any type of yarn, any color and any style between 5 x 5 or 6 x 6 inches.

Monday, January 17, 2011

~~~~ i have been sick for over a week now and am finally starting to feel better. Now i have all kinds of things to catch up on. Like a weeks worth of dishes in the kitchen. i was so sick i did not want to get up off the couch at all and it took all the energy that i had to shower and get dressed. So today is going to have to be a catch up day and take is slowly day. Son has a doctor's appointment this evening and then we will have to go to Target to get is Rx filled (Concerta 36mg) for his ADHD. 

~~~~ i am trying to recycle some yarn from an old sweater of mine that was wearing thin in places and had a couple of holes and a few snags. i am not sure how well this will work but i figured that i would try and see what can be done with it. i have also entered all my knitting needles and crochet hooks on my Ravelry. Now i have an idea of what i have and what i still need to get. i also organized my sewing box that i keep them all in so that it will be easier to find everything in it. i just did this stuff this morning when i was looking for my seam ripper and could not find it. Turns out it was in my actual sewing box instead of the one i use for all my crocheting and knitting stuff. i think i am going to pick up another one to keep in with my yarn stuff. This way i will always know where one is and have one at hand. 

~~~~ Now i am tired and need to rest again before i tackle the next chore for the day. i can not wait until i feel better. i really hate being sick.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

~~~~ As this is the start of a new year i get to make a new visitation schedule up for Son to see his father. i mark all the calendars in the house (3) plus the one in my purse with all the weekends and holidays. Plus i print up a schedule (x3) with everything on it that we each get. So much fun.

~~~~ On top of all of that the hot water pipes to one of the un-rented apartments froze and burst sometime last night and we have NO hot water at all and the basement is FLOODED. The neighbor kids came knocking on my door asking what to do and who to call. This is after other neighbor kids borrowed a cup of sugar and some coffee filters also this morning. It is nice to know that they all know they can turn to me when something is wrong or needed. Now that there is no hot water for a while i called my ex and asked him to have Son take a shower there before he comes here. (Not that i think it will happen) 

~~~~ i am going to go back to working on calendars and schedules so that i can go back to read Emma on my Kindle. i do so love my Kindle. i was telling a friend of mine, that i have known since i was little and just started talking to again (KW), about it and she downloaded the app for her phone and going to get the Kindle for PC as well so that she can take them with her to the hospital when she goes in for her back surgery and can read the books that she wants that way.

~~~~ KW and i have known each other since we were about 10 or so. She and her mom used to live in the duplex above my cousins. We stopped talking for a while over something stupid and then reconnected around September on Facebook. Turns out she knows an ex-boyfriend of mine and several people i went to school with. She now lives in TN and we got to see each other when we were in OH for Christmas. We all got together at AP's apartment. We all had a great time when we got together too and read my Tarot cards for the three of us. Then just talked of things we have been through and mutual friends for all of us. i hope to see them all again soon but do not know when that will happen.


Saturday, January 1, 2011

~~~~ i do not normally make resolutions but this year i think i am going to give it a try. There are things that i want to change in my life and not just because it is the new year but because i want to be a better person and have been trying to change them for a while now.
  • * Lose weight and get into shape
  • * Get back to FLYing
  • * Work on my jealousy issues
  • * Go to school
  • * Work on my poetry
  • * Get my driver's license
  • * Give someone the space they need
~~~~ These are not in any particular order. They are just the order that they came to me. i need to work on several things that will make me a better person for me and help me to move on in my life. i have been through a lot and am trying to be the person i am meant to be rather then the person that my depression has turned me into lately. i am getting better but i still have a long way to go. (To the one that knows most about what i am talking about, "thank You, for helping me see things through the other's eyes.")